The Secret Life of a Pedophile (Part 3 of 3)


By on August 13, 2016

Darkmoon — August 13, 2016

In which it is argued by Lasha Darkmoon, after the conclusion of this interview, that children are now being deliberately groomed for pedophilia by the ruling classes—and that child porn and child brothels will soon be legal.


Edited by Lasha Darkmoon

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DR DAVID GREEN :  So tell me, how did you first develop a taste for little girls?
DON :  My taste for children developed over time. I’ll start from the beginning. I have Attention Deficit Disorder [ADD], so I have problems socializing with people at times. I get along with them so long as I don’t see them or interact with them for too long.
When I lived in my old city, with my family and friends, I didn’t always get along with them. I was also kind of shy when it came to asking women of my age out on a date. So I eventually started spending a lot of time on the internet, talking to women in other cities.
Because of me being ADD and not being able to hold down a job, I never felt confident enough to approach women.
So the internet became an outlet, a way for me to show the personality that everyone likes about me, but at the same time, being able to hide the other flaws, such as my mood swings, my inability to listen and pay attention to others when they are talking, along with the fact that I never kept a job for more than six months.
I finally met a woman on the internet and she was similar to me. She did not have a healthy social life either. So of course we bonded quickly. We talked over the internet for about six months before seeing each other for the first time. She lived a thousand miles away from me, so I could not see her all that much.
I eventually went to visit her and we got along great, so I went and visited her a few more times. I visited her four times over a two year period.
During this time me and my family were not getting along. I was in my early 20s at the time and had no job, no credit, and not even a high school education and had to ask them for everything. I was doing bad to say the least.
They loved me but it was becoming too much for them. I went more and more downhill. Even though I see myself as a handsome and muscular guy, I stopped showering and keeping myself up. No women looked at me or gave me the time of day.
Most probably thought I was a homeless man. The woman I was talking to on the internet never saw any of that. Whenever I went to visit her, I was able to appear as if I was doing better than I was. I would actually clean myself up, cut my hair and put on nice clothes. She really liked me and that felt GOOD… to have somebody who did not see me as a failure.
So finally I ended up moving to the city where my girlfriend lives.
I moved in with her and things were good at first, but then over time we began to grow distant. She is an overachiever in life and that would be somewhat of an understatement. Being successful is very important to her. She spent most of her time working and building her career. She never judged me for NOT being like her.
She actually liked having me around despite me not being able to hold down a job and get myself together. I always supported her [emotionally], and despite me having Attention Deficit Disorder I am a knowledgeable man. So she would always come to me for advice and support. I would even help her with projects at work. Sometimes I would proof read her presentations and things of that sort.
I didn’t graduate but I read a lot … ALL THE TIME … so I am usually able to help most people in a variety of different subjects.
My girlfriend’s family began to have financial problems, so eventually my girlfriend purchased a house with her family in order to split the cost, and now we live in a two family house together. But her family never really liked me because they felt she could do better than me.
I began to get into arguments with them. Over the years I have grown to not speak to them at all.
About six years ago, my girlfriend’s sister had a baby. I was somewhat jealous because I wanted a child with my girlfriend, but she didn’t want one because she feared we would struggle, because she is the only one working.
So when she first told me her sister was pregnant, I took a negative view of it, thinking to myself: “SO WHAT, WHO CARES?”
Eventually the baby was born and I never wanted to go around all that much. But as the child grew older, she started to love me. She wanted to climb on me and play with me a lot. I didn’t like it at first. I was thinking to myself,  “Why is this kid climbing on me?”
I wanted to say “Get away!” But I’m not that kind of person. So I’d let her climb on me and I’d pick her up and play with her whenever she wanted me to.
After a while, she started to grow on me … she showered me with attention … and she would even prefer to be around me more than with her own family. She gave me more love and accepted me more than anyone else ever had ever done in my whole life.
As time went on, the sister started having more problems with the child’s dad and began to confide in me. The irony is,  she confided in me more than she confided in her own sister, my girlfriend. She quickly saw that I had a lot of advice to offer and that I was compassionate. Because of this, she began to come around more and more to see me. For my support. The child’s dad didn’t grow up with a lot of love in his own life, so he showed his daughter very little attention. I was the opposite of him. I began to shower this little girl with as much attention as she showered me with.
So the years kept passing, and me and the child grew closer and closer together … and as she grew up, she began to regard me with a sincere affection.
So there I was, a thousand miles away from my own family, with another family who didn’t like me all that much. And the only reason the sister started to like me was because I was there for her in her time of need … and her little daughter and me got on so well.
LD (summarizes) : So here we have a very strange situation. Don has a wife and daughter in another city. He has abandoned them both and gone to live with another woman he has met on the internet—a career woman living in a distant city. His girlfriend has a married sister. This sister has a baby. It is this child, his girlfriend’s niece, for whom Don develops an obsessive passion as she matures into an attractive 6-year-old girl.
The child becomes, in a sense, Don’s fantasy “child bride”. There is no penetrative sex between them, Don says, but there is clearly a lot of pedophilia of a furtive nature going on in the background. The child appears to be totally unaware that she is the secret object of Don’s sexual ardor.
I cannot help feeling that the child’s strange gravitation toward Don—the fact that she is constantly seeking him out to sit on his lap and nuzzle up to him etc—is an instinctive reciprocal response to his sexual attraction for her that she senses subconsciously.
Even at the age of 6, she can be described as a “little teaser” . . . like the sexualized little girls in the picture below:

Dakota Rose (left) and Angelic Venus (right) both trying to look like miniature sex dolls. Click to enlarge

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DON :  So I started to have feelings for this child, often dreaming of kissing her and things like that because she often kisses me on the lips to show her affection. At first it felt kind of strange, because in my family we didn’t grow up having that much affection with any adult. It felt good. I began to like it when she would kiss me on my lips or face or rub my head. It made feel at peace.
My girlfriend would joke and say “HEY, THAT’S MY DONALD!” and the kid would reply “NO, HE’S MINE!” and everyone would laugh…
More and more, thoughts and feelings began to form in my head. I felt guilty, because I started thinking to myself, AM I A PEDOPHILE? WHY DO I FEEL THIS WAY?
It bothered me… because all these stories of pedophiles were hitting the news and the population was growing a hatred for them.
So here I was having these thoughts that were growing … along with my anger for women. I felt they were shallow, only wanting men with good jobs and nice cars or good credit. All the things I did not have.
So during this time me and my girlfriend stopped having sex as much as before. She would never tell me, but she was angry at me for not getting my life together, and I was angry with her in return because I felt she resented me.
She took a very caring approach but I could not tell her how my anger had grown for her as well as other women. How could I feel “romantic” with someone who didn’t even want to give me a child and resented me for being a failure?
So because I was disillusioned with women in general and didn’t have a good relationship with the one I lived with … I grew distant and cool … but the little girl was always there to make me feel better. She made me feel like I wasn’t so bad.
At this same time, my daughter who is a teenager accepted me completely because I was her father. She hated the fact that I’d moved away. To make up for me moving away and only visiting once a year, I began to call her a lot.
So here I am … feeling angry towards one group of people (adult women) and being accepted by another group of people (younger girls). Ask yourself, how would anybody continue to have a “romantic interest” in a group of people they are angry with???
So over time I accepted what was happening to me, that I was becoming a pedophile … and at first I told myself it wasn’t true. No way could I be like these monsters they describe on TV! … But even though I didn’t have harmful thoughts such as they do .. I did have one thing in common with them … I had an interest in children. That made me feel sick.
So I began going more downhill socially … looking at everyone as an enemy … people who would hate me or try to kill if they knew how I thought.
I think this is what happens to many pedophiles. They don’t feel accepted by their own peers. Meaning other adults. So they turn away from them and seek another outlet. In my case, that outlet was children. I started to think about them more and more.
Nowadays, when I walk down the street and see attractive women, I look, but I know how they are. They don’t want a man with no job, no car, no prospects. They don’t want a guy who has become a pedophile … So even though they look beautiful to me, I feel turned off and angry with them.
But when I see little girls, I feel that they wouldn’t care about any of the things women would care about … so I see little girls in a better light. They are very beautiful, just like grown women are, but they don’t think in the horrible way grown women do. They think nice thoughts about me.
Now I rarely talk to people at all anymore. I’m angry, but I’m more sad and hurt than anything else. And every time this little girl comes around … I feel like things are not so bad.
It’s true … I had pedophile thoughts before I met my girlfriend … but they were not as strong as they are now … I wasn’t like other guys in my teens and 20s. I didn’t date a lot or get much sex and romance from girls my age … at the age of about 22 it began to creep in … I remember seeing schoolgirls and thinking to myself how pretty they were. And I even masturbated over them … but back then it was only on rare occasions. By now you have seen that the little girl I LOVE SO MUCH is my girlfriend’s niece … which further adds to my guilt.
I’m not making excuses, just explaining my thoughts. On to your next question.
DR DAVID GREEN :   Did you have any childhood experiences, or experiences during early adolescence, that might have predisposed you toward pedophilia? My own theory is that pedophilia, like so many other aberrations, is basically a fetish. By which I mean, an addiction developed and reinforced by orgasm.
Thus I read in Krafft-Ebing that a man in 19th century Italy developed a fetish for women with small pox scars. This is because, during an outbreak of small pox in Rome, he had consorted with prostitutes scarred by small pox. Similarly, one can develop a taste for one-legged women. I’ve heard about a hooker in my neck of the woods who never lacks for customers. She has an iron leg.
I believe that pedophilia, a taste for children, can develop in the same way as an obsessive sexual interest in one-legged women can develop. Or women with small pox scars. It’s an acquired taste reinforced by constant orgasms.
DON :  I have had child sex experiences but it wasn’t with an adult, it was with a girl who was older than me by a few years. She showed me her vagina. I was probably around 8 or 9 and she was around 13 or 14. I touched her but I didn’t masturbate her or anything like that.
I think pedophiles already have the taste before being exposed to children. Even though I have thought and fantasized about children since I was in my early 20s, I think that lust has grown a LOT more after being around a child who has given me a lot of affection.
Even though I have never been intimate with a child … I have had an affectionate friendship with one. And since it feels nice, it is only natural to assume that intimacy would be even nicer since all intimacy begins with some type of affection.
DR DAVID GREEN : Would I be correct in saying that your original sexual desires were pretty normal in that you found yourself attracted to girls of your own age and to adult women? and that your attraction toward underage girls (age 5-11) was a later development? and that your attraction toward underage girls has now more or less supplanted your desire for adult women?
DON :  Yes, you would be correct. During my teens I can’t remember ever looking at a child in that way. Thoughts of a child never even crossed my mind. The attraction towards underage girls came later when I was in my early 20s.
I don’t know if I would use the word “supplanted” because my desire for adult women has not been replaced or superseded by my desire for underage girls. I am still very attracted to adult women.
DR DAVID GREEN : Finally, if forced to choose one particular age for maximum sexual attraction in a little girl, what age would you personally choose? Do you think that age 5 would be considered too young for most pedophiles and age 11 too old?
Thank you for cooperating with me. I am learning a lot from our exchange of ideas.
Let me add that I sympathize and empathize with your situation absolutely. And so it seems that one thing leads to another… and a complex web is woven… and you are part of that web.
DON :  Age isn’t really so important. If someone is attracted to an 8-year-old, they will also be attracted to a 9-year-old. As far as [what is] too young or too old,  I have seen 13- and 14-year-old girls I am attracted to as well as 5-year-olds.
DR DAVID GREEN : The Weaver of Nights and Days has woven the web in which you find yourself implicated, ensnared, and trapped. If anyone is to blame for your situation, the Great Weaver is.
It is not for me to condemn the Weaver, let alone condemn you, who are part of his web.
Continue with your fascinating narrative, and maybe it will help you more than you think to make these semi-public revelations. Maybe you will achieve a catharsis of some kind.
My only advice to you at this stage—reject it if you wish—is to look upon this little girl you adore as your spiritual daughter. In a sense, that is what she is. Instead of lusting after her, which is sad and pathetic and can bring nothing but misery to you in the long run, try and love her with a spiritual love—a transformative, mystical love—as Dante loved the beautiful Beatrice and as Petrarch loved Laura.
Am I asking too much?
DON :  You are not asking too much. In fact, I’ve already begun to shift those feelings over the past month or so. My love has become very spiritual … I want to see the best for her … and the love she has given me … and the Love I feel for her … It is easy to have this mystical love you speak of ….
As time goes on it becomes harder and harder to lust for someone who I see as another daughter figure in my life. So believe me when I say … I AGREE WITH YOUR WORDS … 100%.
I think this has helped me a lot … being able to talk to someone and tell them how I feel. I don’t know if it was by accident or intentionally … but your questions have forced me to do something that I have never done … EXAMINE MYSELF … I would not have been able to answer all of the questions that you have asked without digging deep into my soul …
You told me at one point to skip questions that were too personal … but I knew if I did that, I would only continue hiding from myself and never acknowledging who I am and why I am the way I am.
You may not know it … but you have done a great deed in life …. You wanted me to tell the truth … and the reason I did … is because by lying … I would have only been hurting myself … and no one else … So, THANK YOU!
LASHA DARKMOON : I’ve decided  to end the interview at this point. There were no further important revelations about Don’s pedophilia, so this seemed an appropriate moment to stop. Allow me to conclude with a brief summary of the background situation in regard to pedophilia.

Child Porn and the Sexualization of Children

The perfect gift for paedophiles10-year-old girl sexualized by Vogue magazine, owned by Condé Nast Publications which is in turn owned by the Jewish Newhouse (Nauhaus) family.
The sexualization of young children, especially girls, proceeds today at a breakneck speed in our society. Pedophilia is definitely being promoted by the elite media and fashion industry, but especially by the internet.
In January, 2011, a photo spread appeared in French Vogue which was widely condemned and thought to be a pioneer attempt at mainstreaming child porn. Wearing heavy make-up and gold stilettos, Thylane Blondeau was shown sprawling seductively on leopard print bed covers. This pouting “sex bomb” was just ten years old.
For further details, check out this article on Noor al Haqika’s excellent site:Disturbing Sex Kitten French Vogue Photoshoot featuring children.
British MP Helen Goodman accused Vogue magazine of being “disgraceful and totally irresponsible” in whipping up pedophilia in this sneaky, underhand way—testing the waters, as it were, to see what they could get away with.  “They have descended into the gutter,” she fumed.
When asked to explain why they were photographing eroticized little girls in salacious adult poses, Condé Nast, which owns Vogue and is itself owned by the Jewish Newhouse (Neuhaus) family, was “unavailable for comment.”
The Editor-in-Chief of French Vogue at that time was Carine Roitfeld, thought to be Jewish, who is on record as saying, “I will always be irreverent in my own way. I’ve used a lot of cigarettes, a lot of sexy pictures, a lot of naked girls…”
Interestingly enough, Dr Milton Diamond, a University of Hawii professor and director of the Pacific Center for Sex and Society—who also happens (coincidentally) to be Jewish— has argued that child pornography would be beneficial to society because “Potential sex offenders use child pornography as a substitute for sex against children.”
Dr Diamond is a distinguished lecturer for the Institute for the Advanced Study of Human Sexuality in San Francisco. The same institute lists, on its website, a list of “basic sexual rights” that include “the right to engage in sexual acts or activities of ANY KIND WHATSOEVER, providing they do not involve nonconsensual acts, violence, constraint, coercion or fraud.”
Another thing these sex pioneers are promoting is “the freedom of any sexual thought, fantasy or desire.” The Institute also states, significantly, that “NO ONE SHOULD BE DISADVANTAGED BECAUSE OF AGE.” (Emphasis added)
Dr Diamond actually sees the protections now being extended to children as a “disadvantage”. Why are these adorable little creatures, full of life’s promise, being denied the exquisite pleasures of sexual intercourse with adults old enough to be their grandfathers? So goes the argument.
Here’s more good news for you if you happen to be a pedophile.
Dr Diamond says he would like to legalize child porn so that pedophiles can enjoy the “innocent” pleasure of masturbating over little children. His argument is superficially plausible: if masturbating over children stops pedophiles raping and killing them, it is the lesser of two evils. So child pornography serves a useful social function; it reduces child sex abuse crimes.
See Legalizing Child Pornography reduces child sex abuse crimes (Scientific study by Dr. Milton Diamond, U. Hawaii).
The logical consequences of this ill-advised advocacy of sexual deviancy, dressed up as “scientific research”, will of course be child brothels. For if it is permissible to masturbate over pornographic images of children, it is obvious that the children who professionally pose for these flagrantly salacious pictures cannot but be aware that they are complicit partners in an obscene sex act, effectively making themselves child prostitutes.
Having freely consented to being masturbated over with the blessing of the state and their parents, these children, it can be argued,  should  be allowed to sell their bodies for cash in state-run brothels.
Conclusion: children are now being deliberately groomed to pedophilia by the degenerate mass media and the hidden Puppet Masters who rule the world.
How many of our children will escape “the snare of the fowler and noisome pestilence” is anyone’s guess.  
If you have a few minutes to spare, please watch this chillingly unforgettable 9-minute video produced by the late Dr William Pierce. If this doesn’t convince you that we are about to enter one of the darkest periods of our history—when sexual perversion will be praised and anyone who values decency will be held up to ridicule and contempt—nothing will.




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